Ruby goes back to school tomorrow, and whilst I know that she is looking forward to it and will have lots of fun, I can't get my head around it.
I have had the most amazing and enjoyable couple of weeks having her at home all day, we have had lots of fun and I really don't want her to go back to school; I miss her so very much. Parents of older children tell me that it gets easier and there becomes a point where you are willing the holidays to be over, but I don't feel like that at the moment. I feel at a loss and as if I am missing something, Ruby has such a personality that lights up a room.
I am fortunate that I have Lottie at home, but she does not replace Ruby. Lottie although very lovely in her own right, still isn't at the age where we can do girly things; in fact every time I go out to do some shopping Lottie makes it known, by screaming and crying, that she doesn't want to be at the local shopping centre; whereas Ruby always asks when can we next go to the princess shop (Disney Store) or have a hot chocolate with whipped cream and marshmallows.
Don't get me wrong I treasure the time I have with Lottie and I love how she is starting to interact more and more, but she's very different to Ruby. I don't really know why I am writing this blog post, I just felt the need to write down how I feel on the eve of Ruby returning to school and for her to know how much I miss her; maybe I'm looking for some reassure from other mummy's that it does really really get easier.
Anyway, we made the most of our last day together before Ruby goes back to school by doing some drawing and painting. We both had a wonderful time.